I'M BEKI.

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For years, I bumbled through life. On the surface, I was happy. I had my beautiful children, a fulfilling career as an Occupational Therapist within the NHS, great friends, a husband, and a close-knit family.

But deep down, something wasn’t quite right. I noticed how I was a different person in every setting—as if I wore a mask for each group of people. It wasn’t intentional, but I was bending to fit what I thought others expected of me. At the time, I didn’t realise I was losing pieces of myself in the process.

I functioned well enough—so long as I didn’t meet my edges. My comfort zone was a safe haven, and I went to great lengths to stay there. I avoided anything that made me uncomfortable: walking into new rooms, trying a new petrol station, or speaking my mind in meetings. Like many women, I masked these insecurities well, living a life carefully curated to avoid the fear and discomfort bubbling beneath the surface.

But inside, there was conflict. My comfort zone wasn’t as comforting as I’d thought. Resentment, anger, and a quiet sense of disconnect started to show up in my relationships and my sense of self. I thought I’d naturally gain confidence with age, but instead, life threw challenge after challenge my way.

The Breaking Point

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A series of personal traumas brought me to my knees. My confidence shattered, anxiety soared, and stress became my constant companion. Each setback felt like a weight pulling me further down. I cried daily, feeling as though I was unravelling, unsure how to stop the cycle.

I tried different paths toward healing, making small gains here and there. But every time life threw another curveball, my progress crumbled. My body confidence was low, my self-worth was fragile, and I relied on external crutches—like alcohol—to mask the pain. I felt disconnected from my body, my voice, and my true self.

The Turning Point

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I can now see these challenges for what they were: a push to change. Though the journey was long and far from linear, they led me to a powerful transformation.

Through years of exploration, I realised I had rejected my femininity, trying to compete in a world designed for the masculine. I was pushing to be the best at work, and still running a family. I had been so focused on caring for everyone else that I’d neglected the most important person—myself.

Piece by piece, I began to rebuild:

• I recognised how out of alignment and stressed I truly was.
• I learned to love my body and reconnect with my intuition.
• I explored movement, music, and breathwork to reconnect with my inner self.
• I embraced my femininity and rediscovered my sensuality.
• I grew confident in my voice and unapologetically claimed my space in the world.

The work wasn’t done alone. I sought out wise and experienced women—teachers, coaches, healers, and communities that inspired me to rise. They guided me as I collected tools, knowledge, and deep self-awareness.

Who I Am Now

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Today, I live with a confidence I never imagined possible. The mental health dips that once plagued me are long gone, replaced by a toolkit that helps me navigate life’s challenges with grace and resilience. When life gets hard—as it still does—I no longer lose myself.

This transformation wasn’t about becoming someone new. It was about uncovering the real me—the woman who was there all along, waiting to rise.

I have left relationships that made me feel unhappy, and attracted in the most wonderful people in my life.

Over the past four years, I’ve run a successful six-figure coaching business, helping hundreds of clients transform their lives. I’ve gathered skills in coaching, breathwork, somatic practices, and feminine embodiment. But more than anything, I’ve learned that true transformation happens with a community approach. Learning from each other.